Tales of Love and Wii

merry merry merry

2010-12-25T16:21:00.002-06:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Even though I love everything I unwrapped this morning I already received the best present a few days ago...
My Dad coming home after being in the "sandbox" for the last few months.
Since I moved to Virginia fall last year it had been over a year since I had been able to spend time with him. He's really making up for that though, making chili and helping me clean out a lot of crap thats beenb slowing down my computer.

This would be the perfect Christmas if Brett were here.
But he will be home next week thankfully, and we will get to this all over again!

Short post I know but that chili is calling my name!

wherever you are, stay safe and be happy
Amber Starr

La Dee Da

2010-09-14T00:26:00.002-05:00

Just a quick post...
Brett's been here for 3 weeks and so far its been great. I missed him so much!
Our birthdays are this weekend and I'm so excited!
Turning 21 is a big milestone. Old enough to go gamble woohoo haha...
I'm hoping to actually celebrate in Reno but we shall see...

Well, I gotta skidaddle, we are trying to watch A League of Their Own [<3] but our Netflix instant view is acting weird...

Until we meet again...

grr

2010-08-13T14:36:00.002-05:00

So I turned down a job at Rack Room Shoes at the Lake Square Mall in Leesburg AND an apartment 2 doors down from my sister for a position at Target in Reno that I DIDN'T GET...
Now I know I should try to reevaluate the situation and see why God led me back here but right now all I can see is that this was a waste of my time and money.
Right now I could be working, living in my own place and would get to see Brett on the 19th... But instead I'm back at my freaking moms, no job, and have to wait until the 28th to see him. And it sucks. I hate this helpless; "I screwed everything up because I'm so damn impulsive" feeling that is all too familiar.
Now mom's talking about me trying to go back if the job and apartment are still available... I don't know if that is really an option. I know Brett would flip if he had to change his ticket again.
But to quote Robin Williams [paraphrasing Gandhi] "Then I must do what I have got to do"

this is how i feel today..

2010-08-03T14:23:00.003-05:00

Here I am once again, feeling lost right now and then I breath it in to let it go. And you don't know where you are now or what it will come to if only somebody could hear. When you figure out how, you're lost in the moment you disappear. You don't have to be afraid to put your dreams in action, you're never gonna fade, you'll be the main attraction. Not a fantasy. Just remember me when it turns out right. Cause you know that if you live in your imagination, tomorrow you'll be everybody's fascination. In my victory, just remember me when I make it shine. Reaching high, feeling low. I'm holding on but letting go. I'd like to shine, I'll shine for you. And it's time to show the world how, it's a little bit closer as long as I'm ready to go. All we have is right now as long as you feel it inside you know.

Yeah that's pretty much it. Fear, anticipation and inspiration haha...

on the road again...

2010-07-07T00:02:00.002-05:00

moving back to florida again..
leaving on tuesday
will i always be on the move like this?
they say a rolling stone gathers no moss.. but i think i caught a little bit this time because for once i'm not going alone.. well, i kinda am
i will be flying alone but brett will be following me in three weeks. he just wanted to stay until after his annual camping trip to columbia then we will be reunited, our little family of three [us and Sebastian, our adorable 3 month old kitten]
the best part about all of this is that i will be closer to my sister and all of my moms side of the family.
i;m so excited because it has been almost four years since i've seen any of them.
well nothing else to report here
until we meet again

girl on the run, i mean move [tehe]

Yes I know, I'm a bad blogger...

2010-06-07T12:31:00.005-05:00

Well so much has changed since my last post..

I am now living in Chesapeake, Virginia with my boyfriend Brett. I work at Hardee's and to be honest, I love it..

Right now I am in California visiting Aedyn and Connor.. oh, and their parents too! Lol

I don't have much else to say but I will however leave some pics for your perusing..

What a week

2009-06-25T17:50:00.003-05:00

yeah I know its been ages but i just feel the need to type right now..

what a week...

First Ed McMahon... a wonderful, positive, charitable man passed away on Tuesday at the age of 86

Then this morning Farrah Fawcett after a long cancer battle at the age of 62

And now the King of Pop, Michael Jackson has died at the age of 50 due to cardiac arrest.

times like these remind you of your mortality and how swiftly it can be snatched away. don't just look for roses to sniff, take your time with the wildflowers too. hold on to your loved ones, they will be the legs you stand on in the stormy times. make sure everyone in your life knows how you feel, from your 87 year old grandmother to your 4 year old dog, show them what they mean to you every chance you get.

To Ed, Farrah and Michael... Our prayers follow you on gilded wings.. may you rest in peace, you will be greatly missed...

♥

Mary Kay

2009-03-16T15:22:00.001-05:00

Hey everyone!

I am going to start selling Mary Kay cosmetics by the end of the month.

If you would like some information on the products, are interested in being a client

[or if you want to start your own business as well!] then contact me:

email: dvineamber@yahoo.com

And I will try to answer all of your questions

And if you have a space where I could host a Skin care class or Beauty show, I would love some suggestions!

Thank you and have a great day!

Amber Starr

well well well...

2009-02-26T12:16:00.002-06:00

Yeah, I am getting really bad at remembering to update this thing!

So I went to California and had an AWESOME time!

Seeing Shane, Dee, Aedyn and getting to meet Connor was great..

Connor is so cute, he looks JUST LIKE Shane.

And Nina and Brian came over and we played Cranium. Best.game.ever.

When we left that night I cried like a baby. Not because I was sad but because I was so happy. Happy that Aedyn is in such a warm, loving home and happy that the relationship between myself and Shane and Deanna is so close, so special.

It just warms my heart to see them together. They are the most beautiful, caring people I have ever met. I am so happy to have them in my life.

Anywho, Then we had a SUPER BOWL PARTY to go to! Ben's high school buddies have been throwing a party for the last 16 years.

It was so much fun, everyone was really nice. And the Steelers won, which made me happy. And I won $12!! Ha ha..

Everything's been good since then.

We found a house in Silver Springs [about 17 miles from where we are now] that is really cute. It's a green ranch style, 3 bedroom, 2 bath AND its on an acre! We are hoping to find out if its ours by the end of the week. I am super excited about having a home of our own. I am not an apartment person! I get cabin fever easily.

Other than that I am pretty happy. Maybe not elated, but content.

And these days, what more could you ask for?

♥Live.Laugh.Love...♥

wow

2009-01-24T21:38:00.003-06:00

I really should try to update more often.

So last weekend I got to see LeAnne for the first time in over a year. It was so great getting to see her and the kids. Alaisa is getting so big and J'vion is so cute!

[I'll have pictures of that visit soon]

And I have a great weekend ahead of me as well. Ben and I are heading down to SoCal for a few days. I will get to attend the hearing for Aedyn which sets my mind a little more at ease.

No, I lied; it makes me even more anxious...

Then I will get to actually spend some time with Shane and Dee and Aedyn and I get to meet Connor at last!

Super Bowl Sunday I will be going to a party with Ben. Friends of his from high school have a party every year and even though he doesn't even follow football, he always goes.

Aahhh, so much happiness on the horizon....

home again home again

2008-12-04T00:01:00.003-06:00

SO...
..the Air Force decided that I was damaged goods and that they needed to cut me loose. Now I am in Ferndale again and just trying to figure out what to do with myself.
Jeff and I are.. let's just say we don't really know what the hell is going on.
[Like we all know, I never know what's going on any damn way]
Right now I am taking everything as it comes..
I'm on strict doctor's orders to not work for AT LEAST a month and a half so I will be spending my days with my new favorite person in the world; Miss Lilly.
I will have to get some pictures of her on here, she's so beautiful. And I joke with her Momma [Danielle] that I am just going to keep her forever.

Well that's all for now...
I don't have a cell phone [at least not one with a plan anyway] and I'm not passing out Danielle's number so if you must get ahold of me call my parents and they will track me down or you can always email me.

Love and prayers the whole world over;
Amber Starr

only have a minute..

2008-10-06T10:17:00.002-05:00

I'm leaving today for MEPS and then it's San Antonio or bust! Love to all you guys and thanks for all of your support.
Jeffrey's going to try to remember to sign on every now and then to give an update on how I am. But he will be busy packing so it'll probably be a rare thing.
Well.. time to get this show on the road!

See you in 6 weeks!!

GO AIR FORCE!

sometimes we wonder...

2008-10-05T01:59:00.002-05:00

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have
to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.

Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." "Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"
To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves.
But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! "
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times.
But God knows that when He puts us through
these things all in His order, they
always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!
God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart.

Life may not be the party we hoped for,
but while we are here we Might as well dance.

lolcat

2008-10-01T04:37:00.001-05:00

more animals

from skittles

2008-09-27T12:49:00.001-05:00

This is a poem my friend Skittles [aka Cyrano] wrote for me.

i hope that this time you win
so you can be happy once again
but if you thought you're weren't a winner before
you may want to think about that some more
sure there was hurt sure there was pain
sure there were things left tainted and stained
but you're a beautiful girl with a great smile
a beautiful heart and a wicked style
even though you haven't won in the love game
with friends like yours you've still won just the same

PmS...poetmaster skittlez

bon anniversaire a moi!

2008-09-16T22:58:00.004-05:00

Aah, nineteen at last! And what a happy birthday it is so far. I've received 2 pairs of pajamas,
a Macy's gift card,
new Clinique makeup, lash primer, lip liner, and a free gift with purchase of two lipsticks, face wash, eye makeup remover, blush and mascara in a really cute kiss covered case.
new Victoria's Secret fragrances Pink which is kind of citrus-y with more green tones and Love Spell which is my FAVORITE! It's white cherry, peach and jasmine. My bag however is black, not the white pattern, and has a gold medallion on the front that says "Love Victoria's Secret"
and a big bag of dark chocolate M&M's!
Now I'm off to get a mani- pedi since [as my dad said] this is my last chance to pamper myself before bootcamp. Then we are going to Chili's for lunch and going to the movies. We were going to see The Women but from what I've read its not that good so we'll probably end up seeing Pineapple Express or Righteous Kill.

visual DNA [thanks dad]

2008-09-15T16:21:00.001-05:00

we remember

2008-09-11T15:39:00.004-05:00

Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day
Out in the yard with your wife and children
Working on some stage in LA
Did you stand there in shock at the site of
That black smoke rising against that blue sky
Did you shout out in anger
In fear for your neighbor
Or did you just sit down and cry

Did you weep for the children
Who lost their dear loved ones
And pray for the ones who don't know
Did you rejoice for the people who walked from the rubble
And sob for the ones left below

Did you burst out in pride
For the red white and blue
The heroes who died just doing what they do
Did you look up to heaven for some kind of answer
And look at yourself to what really matters

I'm just a singer of simple songs
I'm not a real political man
I watch CNN but I'm not sure I can tell you
The difference in Iraq and Iran
But I know Jesus and I talk to God
And I remember this from when I was young
Faith hope and love are some good things he gave us
And the greatest is love

Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day
Teaching a class full of innocent children
Driving down some cold interstate
Did you feel guilty cause you're a survivor
In a crowded room did you feel alone
Did you call up your mother and tell her you love her
Did you dust off that bible at home
Did you open your eyes and hope it never happened
Close your eyes and not go to sleep
Did you notice the sunset the first time in ages
Speak with some stranger on the street
Did you lay down at night and think of tomorrow
Go out and buy you a gun
Did you turn off that violent old movie you're watching
And turn on "I Love Lucy" reruns
Did you go to a church and hold hands with some stranger
Stand in line and give your own blood
Did you just stay home and cling tight to your family
Thank God you had somebody to love

I'm just a singer of simple songs
I'm not a real political man
I watch CNN but I'm not sure I can tell you
The difference in Iraq and Iran
But I know Jesus and I talk to God
And I remember this from when I was young
Faith hope and love are some good things he gave us
And the greatest is love

I'm just a singer of simple songs
I'm not a real political man
I watch CNN but I'm not sure I can tell you
The difference in Iraq and Iran
But I know Jesus and I talk to God
And I remember this from when I was young
Faith hope and love are some good things he gave us
And the greatest is love

The greatest is love
The greatest is love

Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day

To all our men and women in blue, camouflage, or black rubber.. you are in our hearts even when you are not at home. God bless you all.

Rest in peace Dirty Harry ♥

2008-08-24T12:20:00.002-05:00

Yesterday our beautiful feline companion Dirty Harry passed away. He was very sick and losing a lot of weight. My mother thinks he might have had diabetes, he drank a lot and was always trying to find the warmest place in the house to sleep. He was beautiful, had the softest fur. He always tried to get into things like hampers, shoe boxes, bathroom sinks and my mother's makeup box. Harry came to us, found us more than we found him. He was sitting in the snow in the middle of the street. We took him home and he decided we were a good family to adopt. Playful, mischievous, stubborn; a voice like a siren. As much as he loved water he merely tolerated baths. He was a good companion for Marshall, our other cat, and he loved to sit on Daddy's chest when he was in the office on the computer. We know that he is in a better place; warm and light; and that Grandma is taking good care of him. Harry we love you very much; you will be greatly missed by all of us.

"While grief is fresh, every attempt to divert only irritates. You must wait till it be digested, and then amusement will dissipate the remains of it." -
-- Samuel Johnson

Support our troops, for FREE!

2008-08-22T13:29:00.001-05:00

There's a new show on HBO called Generation Kill. It's a book that was
made into a miniseries (like Band of Brothers) about Iraq and
Afghanistan.

Please take a moment to go to the website
( http://www.hbo.com/generationkill/ ), click on Troop Drive (right side
of tool bar) and click donate now. Just fill in your info and decide
which item you want HBO to donate to the troops in your name.

No matter what your opinion of the war, thanks for supporting our
troops!!

i am...

2008-08-12T14:49:00.003-05:00

I am in a very odd mood today, somewhat eccentric... I woke up with a very strong urge to listen to a few songs I haven't heard in years.

C'est La Vie- B*Witched
My Own Worst Enemy- Lit
Extraordinary- Liz Phair
I guess it was the rain I woke up to . It wasn't the usual pretty rain, sprinkling with the sun still shining. Instead it was loud, disgusting and gray so it put me in a funk.
So obviously I didn't get a job at MEPS last week. I sat around all day just playing cards and being bored. All week I have been trying to figure out whether I should continue trying to quick ship or just wait. After much debate with friends, family and my cats [ha ha] I have decided to stay here in Pensacola until October while trying to get in shape and spending to with my hubby.
By the way, tomorrow we will have been married for two whole months. I'm sure those of you who have been married a long time are laughing at my excitement but think of it from my point of view. I'm young, in love, and have all these great experiences ahead of me. Every "month-aversary" is still important. I bet when you were newlyweds you were just as happy about the first few months as steps up to the one year mark.
Well Will & Grace is almost over which means I have to get comfy on the bed to watch Gilmore Girls. Jeffrey is really getting hooked to it! Just shows you how intoxicating the Lauren Graham/ Alexis Bledel combo is.

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess

the root of the root and the bud of the bud

2008-07-30T14:18:00.004-05:00

Our female cat Sugar Baby is in heat. [oh joy!] Our three fertile, strapping males; Cocoa, Jack and Mr. Kitty; are all clamoring around the front door trying to get some, uh sugar, if you will. I had to lock her up in our room because Jack was actually attacking her. He is Siamese after all. She was yowling and crying to be let out. I could her Jeffrey from the kitchen saying "Hush your mouth! Silence you tramp!"
Our neighbors on the corner across the street are for some reason cutting down all the beautiful trees lining their front and side yards. I can understand taking down one tree if it posed immediate threat to your house or power lines, but taking out 6 trees? They were beautiful, and provided shade along the sidewalk which I am sure passersby appreciated. It's just ridiculous.
I was sitting on the porch writing in my notebook when a man from the tree company sauntered over, wanting to discuss taking out our tree in the backyard. We have a large pecan tree that unfortunately has died, but its just so pretty. I love to take pictures from the base looking straight up the trunk. But our landlady thinks it's an eyesore and wants to get rid of it. Whatever. He inspected the backyard and gave Kathie a price quote:
Cutting down pecan tree- $800
Stump grinding [?]- $75
Hand carrying tree from backyard- $200
Hauling 1 load of debris- $125
Destroying God's work-priceless.
[Ok I added the last one, BUT IT'S TRUE!]
That's a total of $1200, a months rent at my parents' house!

Our pecan tree.

In other news, I received a call from Sgt. Greer this morning, [surprise surprise] and I am leaving for Montgomery on Monday. *big sigh of relief* So for the rest of the week I'm just gonna take it easy and spend all the time I can with Jeffrey.

"I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart. I am never without it. Anywhere I go, you go, my dear. And whatever is done by only me... is your doing, my darling. I fear no fate... for you are my fate, my sweet. I want no world, for, beautiful... you are my world, my true. Here is the deepest secret no one knows. Here is the root of the root... and the bud of the bud... and the sky of the sky of a tree called life... which grows higher than the soul can hope... or mind can hide. It is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart"
e e cummings

It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside

2008-07-30T00:36:00.003-05:00

My dad has decided to send me pictures of my family and pictures from when i was skinny everyday to make me cry...

Here's an amazing one of my mom surrounded by snow. Isn't she beautiful? She's the most incredible person I know. ♥

My weekend was pretty rough emotionally [anniversary of my grandma passing away, double cousin drama, broke]
but today was great
we have cash money headed our way Thursday and Friday
I'm [hopefully] leaving on Monday
committed a B and E with my mother-in-law
[if you wanna know about that last one, write or text]
now I'm just chilling on the laptop watching my hubby play Smackdown VS. Raw 2008

live, laugh, love..

to those that know me the best...

2008-07-18T19:01:00.001-05:00

to my best buds, my confidantes, my loves, my allies, my soulmates

you are not only my world, but the bluish black open-ness that holds it in place

without you i dont think i would be who i am today
because you helped me get here...

you're the GPS that helps me navigate my life on those dark back roads called dilemmas

you are like the uppers in my orange juice, making sure i'm happy and healthy every step of the way

keeping me away from [most!] things that are illegal, immoral or fattening

the glue gun in the scrapbook of my past, sorting through my memories and making the good ones stick...
because you made the good ones...

for Shane, Deanna and Aedyn..

2008-07-15T13:38:00.003-05:00

So I was shopping in Walgreens when I received the text message from Deanna. Then I kinda started to scream, laugh and jump up and down. Needless to say I was very excited and happy for them. They are already perfect parents and genuinely the greatest, most compassionate people you will ever meet so I know that another baby in that home just equals more happiness and love.

Congrats again and many happy returns to the ever-expanding Moore family!!

facebook

2008-06-16T23:33:00.002-05:00

The other day Jeff was telling me how FaceBook.com is much better than Myspace because it's a bit more mature and there are no little kids trying to win the popularity game on it. So of course i signed up!

whole lotta update

2008-06-03T20:52:00.002-05:00

So I know it has been weeks since I've actual written anything about the goings on here in Pensacola.

Well my mom came in for the weekend on the 16th and we had a blast with what little time we had. We saw What Happens in Vegas at the new Rave. That theater is so awesome. The movie was hilarious and touching. I love Cameron Diaz! We also did a little bit of shopping, [I think guilt caused some purchases. haha] Then we took Jeffrey to dinner at McGuire's Irish Pub and left a dollar bill on the ceiling, which is tradition. If you ever have the good fortune to come out here, you MUST eat at McGuire's! The atmosphere alone is worth the trip!
Sunday morning we had a tearful goodbye. I miss my mom so much, I shed a few tears every other day when I get off the phone with her.
Later that day we drove out to Jeff's Uncle David's house to celebrate his grandma's 77th birthday. Lots of fun! We ate , talked, swam, played foosball with his 10 year old cousin Josh. Jeff won every game but I think it waws just beginner's luck. [Can you believe he had never played foosball before?]
Monday and Tuesday my grandparents came to town on their way out West. We went to the "Gulf-arium" in Ft. Walton Beach. They had a really cute show with a sea lion and two dolphins, and then the all dolphin show was spectacular! Tuesday we hung out at the hotel, Jeff came with me this time, then went to Bayview park to enjoy the perfect weather. Unfortunately somewhere between the La Quinta Inn, the park and Golden Corral my glasses were abducted by aliens. Seriously, they disappeared into thin air.
I finally got new ones today after a week and a half of migraines and blurred vision. I think they were worth the wait though because they are absolutely fabulous! [I will post pictures soon!]
I saw my recruiter yesterday, lost 6 pounds by the way!, and we discussed my options. If I want to wait for one of the 5 jobs I chose it could be anytime between August and November that I leave for bootcamp. So I'm now thinking scratch that idea. If I do a quick ship my enlistment contract will go from 6 to 4 years and I'll have the option to cross-train into my desired MOS in 3 years. Though I will lose a paygrade if I do that. Anyway, I think I will definitely excel in any MOS so I will most likely be quick-shipping out of here ina few weeks.
All in all it has been an eventful and, at times, emotional couple of weeks. I will have pictures in the next post but right now I am going to snuggle with Jeffrey and watch one of the greatest movies of all time. That's right people, Star Wars! Episode IV, A New Hope!

Love, Airman Irish

my sixth sense

2008-05-06T03:15:00.003-05:00

I took the "what's your sixth sense?" quiz on gURL.com
		my sixth sense is clairaudio Sound is your sixth sense. You're probably not surprised since you might be found rockin' a pair of headphones at anytime. So how does this relate to your inner voice? Read more... What's your sixth sense?

I thought this was so cool because it is totally me. I have always had kind of an inner soundtrack. This quiz was really cool. Jeff got the same one as me, which is very funny.

coming soon to an ariport near me

2008-04-26T11:24:00.002-05:00

Countdown Clocks at WishAFriend.com

Yahoo! I'm so excited that she's coming here to Florida.
I miss my mom like crazy.. I've been here 2 and a half months. I can't believe it.

So even though I have a feeling those are both guys lets pretend the one on the right with the longer hair is a girl. Because that is exactly how jeff and I are at the beach. Minus the "college drinks" of course.

Yes I miss my dad and my little brother too. I'm not just a mama's girl. I'm more of a Daddy's girl, but sshhhhhh... don't tell anyone

Some poetry courtesy of Amber Tamblyn

2008-04-23T04:16:00.004-05:00

You might know her form Joan of Arcadia. Or maybe you saw the movie Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Either way I think that Amber Tamblyn is a great young woman. She cares less about being a movie star and more about being an actress. She is also a very talented poet.
This first one is very powerful, you can actually feel her words. It's also a little bit sad because I too have had a brush with cancer in my family. But I absolutely LOVE it.

And this one is just funny as hell. Thought that I should make you laugh after watching the last video! It has a tiny shade of blue but it's hilarious all the same.

*Hope you enjoyed it, I might add some other ones later or you can go to youtube.com yourself and find them.

a survey and JUNO ICONS!!

2008-04-19T21:39:00.004-05:00

Would you take a bullet for anyone? my family and friends. And for my country

What is your favorite color? any shade in the blue family

Ever been to Cold Stone? yes! i LOVE it

Have any siblings? one "little" brother

What about pets? too many!

Can you even tell the difference between them? of course i can

Last person of the opposite sex that was in your bed? jeff

Who did you last talk to on the phone? my dad

Who did you last talk to through IM? jeff when i was at MEPS

What did you last eat? Hot dogs and bourbon & brown sugar baked beans YUM

When is the last time you went swimming? cant even remember

What kind of shirt are you wearing? a long sleeve one with a little pocket and hood

What jewelry are you wearing? my sweet 16 ring from my dad

What kind of soda did you drink last? mountain dew [so bad for me]

What is the last state you've visited besides where you live? Alabama

Do you know anyone in the military? my dad, cousins all been, some friends and soon ME

What kind of cell phone do you have? virgin mobile

Who is your best friend? Miss Kelli McGinty [tm] ♥

What game did you last play on PS2? something with my brother

Have you ever moved? too many times to try and count

Do you have step parents or siblings? nope, my parents have been married 21 years

Do you believe that Jesus died 4 your sins? yes sir

Do you own a Bible? If so, how much have you read? i've read it all the way through

Do you get scared when a plane flies above you? not after hearing it my whole life

Do you hold your breath when you go over a bridge? why would i do that?

Are you bipolar? not always

Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yes

Are you racist? nope

Have you ever been in a fight? Why? ha ha with family yes over stupid crap

Is there anyone your interested in dating? If so, who? yes my fiance ha

Do you talk alot? GOD YES

Explain what you look for in the opposite sex? honesty, intelligence, a sense of humor, witty, conviction

Are you ticklish? very

Are you a heavy sleeper? not at all

How big is you bed? tiny itty bitty bed

Who was the last person you were in bed with? jeff and our two cats

Number of pillows you sleep with? 2

Last time you had a date? last sunday afternoon, we ate Marble Slab in his car

How many times have you been pulled over? never, i don't drive =[

Tell me a random fact about yourself. i went to 14 schools

Craziest place you've ever slept? in a car in this hidden place in the rocks off the highway [dad!]

Ever had surgery? Why? tonsillectomy when i was 7

How old are you? 18

Wake up next to anyone this morning? Who? jeff and yoyo was on my side trying to lick my nose

Is this person important to you? they both are. i love them very much

Can you play pool? not really

Do you like your job? not yet, i haven't left for it

Why did you take this survey? Because I wanted an excuse to keep Jeff off the computer! and it gave me something to do while listening to the Sweeney Todd soundtrack.

so... BUTTONS! [yes Dee, on your underwear..]

2008-04-04T21:03:00.002-05:00

Well... Tampa fell through because we couldn't get the car. [~~Stupid Brian~~]

But I ended up having a great day with Jeffrey and Kathie anyway. Got The Notebook at last!!!
And Dillard's was apparently on free- sample overdrive today:
4 Donna Karan signature scents
Givenchy Irresistible
DKNY Delicious Night, Be Sexy and Be sweet
Estee Lauder Night Serum, Moisturizer, and Pore minimizer
Clinique Exfoliator, self tanner/ bronze moisture, sunscreen and superbalm
Prescriptives Lipgloss and "good in bed" nighttime moisturizer.

I tell ya, there's nothing in this world better than retail therapy...

Anyway, I have to go because Rush Hour is on and Jeff is still in disbelief that I've never seen any of them.
Tootles, Noodles!

You love Stewie just as much as everyone else on the planet... lol

La Dee Da...

2008-04-03T12:05:00.013-05:00

I know exactly how that feels...

So i'm kinda bored so I decided to post pictures... LOL

Okay, I admit I am a little obsessed with RENT. But there are worse things to be obsessed about, don't you think?
And I LOVE Maria Kanellis from WWE. She's smart, funny, gorgeous and she makes all of her costumes. She's come a long way from being the ditz they scripted her to be.

And then of course there's John Cena... So pretty.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

DUH.

How can something be terrible yet hilarious all at once?
This is my new favorite Disney movie EVER. It has over 100 references to other famous Disney classics. Most of them you can catch but a lot I read about on Wikipedia. It was funny, sweet, great music. The coolest part was seeing Idina Menzel [yes, Maureen]. Jeff and I both jumped up and screamed. It was a geek-out moment.

Ok I think this enough nothing-ness for one day. I added lots of Disney songs and musical numbers to my playlist. Definitely something to check out.

♥

This Weekend...

2008-04-01T16:14:00.000-05:00

Jeffrey and I are going to drive down to Tampa to see my grandparents. He is a little nervous about meeting them but I know it will all be fine. We are also going to Busch Gardens with them on Saturday. I am super excited about that because Jeffrey has NEVER BEEN TO A THEME PARK in his life! Can you believe it? Neither can I. So I will be taking him on every roller coaster I can get to at least 5 times. Hee hee...
This is going to be so much fun!

The only thing I worry about really is that we have to drive about 7 hours to get there. The trip back will be fine. We're going to borrow a car from his friend Brian. Jeff's got a '92 Firebird with no AC and the speakers just buzz at you. So Brian said we could borrow a car from to travel with a bit more comfort. lol.

Well I have to go sift through my pile of ~~crap~~ ~~stuff~~ clothes! Haha...

Much love to all!
♥

I DID IT!!! ♥

2008-03-31T00:40:00.000-05:00

Yes sir I am at least in the Air Force! I swore in on Friday, March 28th. Right now I am considered a Reservist until I go back to choose my actual job [of the 5 I chose on my papers] and get my ship-out date.

YAY!

I love this
picture of the baby! It's hilarious and adorable. The Airman's symbol tattoo on his little tush is cute. [And I thought it was an image my dad would appreciate.]

This one I found on photobucket.com and I almost cried. I had to stretch it a little bit and the words ended up kind of distorted but I still like it.

Many things to say

2008-03-27T00:16:00.000-05:00

So tomorrow I am going back to MEPS. And this time nothing is standing in my way. I will DEP in on Friday and I can't wait. I'll be coming home to my sweetie pie an official U.S. Basic AirMan [woman] LOL
Unfortunately Jeffrey will not be coming with me. [S a d f a c e]
He has been trying to ween himself off Prozac for about a month now but it has to be out of your system for at least a year before you can enlist. Luckily he told the recruiter today. If he had gone up it would have shown up in his urine test and he would have been permanently disqualified. I am still very proud of him. At least he was being honest. [yay!]

Monday night one of our sweet kitties was hit by a car. Her name was Jasmine, the sweetest baby. She was part Siamese and had the cutest little crossed blue eyes. Kathie, Jeff and I were very distraught. We gave her a little ceremony in the backyard and said our goodbyes. Here's to you sweetheart, we miss you so much.

In Loving Memory of our Bunny Baby-

GOOD Friday [to you]

2008-03-21T14:08:00.000-05:00

So today I finally got Jeffrey to take me to the beach!
I hadn't been to Pensacola Beach in almost SIX YEARS!! I was so excited...
I'm a little sun-kissed, especially on my face lol, but I had so much fun.
Yesterday we saw TSgt. Greer [our Air Force recruiter] and he says that we will be going to MEPS together and that means we will be leaving for basic within a week or so of each other. Yay!! That increases our probability of being stationed together. Especially since we are going in for the same job at the same time and will be requesting the same stations,
We're aiming for Idaho, Washington, Oregon, California or Nevada. We both have friends and family in each of those states. I am so excited!!!!
So we should be going on Thursday and Friday of this week or next and this time I will be signing my contract and swearing in. No excuses this time around!!
[Basic Airman] [future] Irish

just had to...

2008-03-15T20:15:00.001-05:00

i'm just way to eager for saint patty's to be here!!!

the difference between...

2008-03-14T04:28:00.000-05:00

...Science and God

"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ." The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"

"Yes sir," the student says.

"So you believe in God?"

"Absolutely."

"Is God good?"

"Sure! God's good."

"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"

"Yes."

"Are you good or evil?"

"The Bible says I'm evil."

The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a
moment.

"Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good...!"

"I wouldn't say that."

"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?"

The student remains silent.

"No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

"Let's start again, young fella Is God good?"

"Er...yes," the student says.

"Is Satan good?"

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No."

"Then where does Satan come from?"

The student : "From...God..."

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?"

"Yes, sir."

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?"

"Yes."

"So who created evil?" The professor continued, "If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil."

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
"Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?"

The student: "Yes."

"So who created them?"

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. "Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

"Tell me," he continues onto another student. "Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?"

The student's voice is confident: "Yes, professor, I do."

The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?"

"No sir. I've never seen Him"

"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"

"No, sir, I have not."

"Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?"

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"Yet you still believe in him?"

"Yes."

"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?"

"Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith."

"Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. "Professor, is there such thing as heat?"

"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."

"And is there such a thing as cold?"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No sir, there isn't."

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it."

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?"

"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night
if it isn't darkness?"

"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. "So what point are you making, young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed."

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
"Flawed? Can you explain how?"

"You are working on the premise of duality," the student
explains. "You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it."

"Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?"

"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do"

"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?"

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

"To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean."

The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?" The class breaks out into
laughter.

"Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?"

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. "I
guess you'll have to take them on faith."

"Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life," the student continues. "Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?"

Now uncertain, the professor responds, "Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light."

The professor sat down.

♥ a survey ♥

2008-03-11T02:05:00.000-05:00

1. Would you chew gum after someone else already has?
sadly i would if it was LeAnne 's

2. What song describes your relationship status?
I believe in a thing called love- The Darkness

3. How much does your dog weigh?
justice is a fatty, maybe 50 lbs.

4.Are you a heart breaker, or the broken heart?
i try not to be either but life is ugly and unfortunately ive been heart broken but fortunately only once!

5. Ever been skinny dipping?
not that i recall

6. Earrings or necklace?
earrings

7. Who have you talked to most today?
jeffrey

8. Where were you yesterday?
ER, popeye's, BP, walgreen's, home

9. Friend of the opposite sex that lives closest to u?
jeff lol

10. Color of your shirt?
pink

11. How many years have you taken a language?
3.5 french

12. Who’s on speed dial 2?
my mom & dad's

13. What color is your background on your computer mainscreen?
its a picture of me & jeff with the lyrics to "so this is love" from Cinderella
i'm such a disney baby

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
yes i do =]

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
make sure you know how to set up the tent BEFORE you go
just in case it starts to rain and you have to do it in the dark [ha ha]

16. Are you A BAD influence?
no im usually a good one

17. What color are your eyes?
blue

18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
well Michael would be just a little weird lol

19. Would you do anything for someone?
depends on who you are talking about

20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
Oh yes, many times
it's called high school

21. Favorite color?
black, pink and green
any shade of pink happens to flatter me I've heard

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
:) what are you talking about? =] never! =/

23. What song is on?
Mandy Moore's cover of Rihanna's song Umbrella
it's very pretty

24. Are your grades good?
i dont get graded anymore [sweet!]

26. Would you date anyone on your friends list?
i am already dating jeffrey

27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
they all do
we're cool like that

28. Whose page did you visit last?
Um, i think it was Rochelle's

29. Last time you went out to lunch?
Subway

30. Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
not anymore since they ended the show
s a d n e s s

31. Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?
who?

32. Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?
never it's so retarded

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.s?
i wish i had her new one
piece of me is something i can relate to sometimes

38. Alanis Morsette?
jagged little pill is the best

39. Do you watch Family Guy?
of course!
"there's a message in my alphabets.. it says oooooooooooo"
"peter those are cheerios"

40. King of the Hill?
i used to love it

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
no sir

43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
i wouldn't say its obnoxious..

44. Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one’s home?
pretty much

45. Have you ever watched a little kid’s show?
gullah gullah island

46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they weren’t?
wha-?
not that i know of

47. Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary school?
no
just doodles of hearts and "miss amber -----"

48. Have you ever liked a boy but didn’t ask her/him out because you were afraid?
..or because i wasn't allowed to date

49. Have you ever written a poem or story about your life?
all the time

where did 50 go? =0

51. Have you ever liked someone solely because of their appearance?
sadly yes i have

52. Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
never
it's time consuming

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
ask my mom
hahaha

54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
no
who would want to?
oh, wait. MY DAD.

55. Do you know how to knit?
nope

56. Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
no i dont even have an ipod [tear]

57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them in a song?
oh of course
and walked around singing it

58. Do you keep a diary or journal online?
that would by the good ol' blog

60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
coldstone

61. Physics or chemistry?
neither if it can be helped

62. Earphones or headphones?
head

63. Pink or teal?
all shades of both
i love color!

64. Earrings or a ring?
earrings

65. Commitment or casual dating?
a commitment always

66. Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars?
OH.MY.GOD. i could never choose
i love all three!!

67. Fly or road trip?
i like to fly now!!

68. Starbucks?
is not for me
i'll leave that for Shane and Dee =]

[v a c a t i o n]

2008-03-09T14:02:00.000-05:00

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Don't I just look so serious? Like "Don't mess with this face.." I love it. I'm such a smart-looking person. I thought I would be playing the game today but I have decided to let Jeffrey play first so all the levels and characters are unlocked for me. I like to play as Zelda or Kirby. Luigi's pretty cool too.

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So yeah this is pretty much what I've been doing for the last month [-ish] just taking pictures, of myself, and putting them on the computer... lol. no that's not pathetic at all. Ha Ha.. The shirt i'm wearing has happy bunny on it. It says "like i need your approval.." that is so me.. I almost didn't post this one because of le cleavage but i couldn't resist my smile. I just look too adorable to not be shared.

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This here is my Jeffrey. Ain't he cute? He is a computer geek. Super whiz kid extraordinare here. The Madonna headphones are not a fashion statement though, he's simply chatting online with his fellow gamers. It's cute how he gets "in the zone" when he's gaming.. all serious and what not. Like right now he's in Brawl mode and yelling "YEYEAH!" when he beats something.. irresistible.. ♥

BRAWL, BABY!

2008-03-08T18:22:00.001-06:00

Sweet barbecue sauce... [lol]
I'm sorry in advance if I'm not online for a few days. I will be absorbed in the awesomeness of Brawl and having fun playing it with my honey.
So much love to everyone out there in cyberland [cause who would ever want to leave Cyber Land anyway..? walls ain't so bad..]
Amber [f r e a k i n g] Starr

ooh la la...

2008-03-08T17:33:00.000-06:00

'Ello loves! This is one of my new favorite pics of me.. Don't I look just so happy and content? Ahh... the Florida life. anywho, havin' fun still. Today is Kathie's [Jeffrey's mom] birthday! She actually made her own cake, can you believe it? We're having chili and cornbread for dinner, SWEET!! I'm hoping that i can go to the beach soon to try out my new bathing suit. I love it so much it is tres adorable. It's black with pink and white polka dots on it. What girl can resist polka dots? Not this one that's for damn sure..

I can't wait for later tonight.. IT'S BRAWL TIME, BABY!! The street date is supposed to be at midnight but we might be able to get ours at 10pm tonight because Game Stop nationwide is having a huge Super Smash Brothers Brawl tournament. We aren't going to stay since Kathie is driving us. What a pity... Jeff's car has bum tires so we are waiting on getting it fixed. I still can't believe I have to wait 3-4 months to leave for Basic. On the bright side I get to spend more time with Jeffrey. Well there's chocolate cake with my name on it so I better get some before Jeff or Mr. Ki Ki gets it first...

[hee hee, i LOVE it!]

at last

2008-03-07T22:26:00.001-06:00

ok i have a few more minutes to give a quick teensy update because i know you're just dying to know, right? lol
so i just spent like half an hour doing a survey for no reason whatsoever...
i am a huge survey loser
anywho;
i am in Pensacola
I've been here almost a month and will be here for quite some time because my recruiter just told me that unless i do a quick ship the Air Force wont be ready for me for about 3- 4 months
joy
but it's okay because i am staying with jeffrey
jeff and i dated like 4 years ago but it didn't work out
[long distance doesn't work for high school freshman =) ]
BUT we are together again [at last, get it?]
we LOVE each other
sound impulsive?
it's not
it can't be if it's 4 years in the making
tomorrow is his mom's birthday so we're gonna PARTY!!! in other words we are going to sit in the house coming up with brilliant ideas of what we could do but instead 9pm will roll around and we'll still be in the house
but then we get to go to Game Stop to pick up our reserver copy of SUPER SMASH BROTHERS BRAWL!!!! woo-hoo!
and then jeff and i wont leave his room except for bodily functions for the next week
lol
well i cant think of anything else to say at the moment so i'll just relinquish the computer to jeffrey like he wants..
[yes i hear you yawning behind me, young man]
[:live:] [:laugh:] [:love:]

Damn...

2008-03-07T14:08:00.000-06:00

..it's been forever since I last posted. Girl on the run, er, move here. This time from sunny and beautiful Florida. I actually have to skedaddle on outta here to see my recruiter but after a few words from our sponsors I will return promptly to fill you in on the fun stuff.
Tootles!!
~Amber Starr

"may wisdom, love and laughter fill your days...
at least 2 out of 3
the wisdom we can do without..."

a holly jolly christmas after all

2007-12-26T00:06:00.000-06:00

so Christmas was A BLAST! here's what loot I scored this year:
from mom-
Drew Barrymore DVD set w/ Ever After, Fever Pitch & Never Been Kissed
Legally Blonde 1 and 2
The Fighting Temptations [gotta love the gospel music!!]
Victoria's Secret lip splash set
mixing bowl set [stainless steel]
non-stick cookware set
Cook for the cure pink cooking utensils
FordCares.com Warrior t-shirt
Save the Ta-Ta's loving memory tee
Save the Ta-Ta's key chain
silver ying-ying toe ring
love spell body spray
Dream Angels Heavenly perfume
and a pillow that has the quote "i smile because you're my daughter, I laugh because there's nothing you can do about it" on it
from dad:
a sterling silver necklace with real amber beads on it
from Uncle Dale: $50 cash money
from Hugh's Grandparents:
a Shining Star stuffed penguin w. hat and scarf
lip gloss set
nail polish
from Hugh's Aunt Norma:
link charm bracelet with Chinese "Snake" zodiac and Virgo charm

all in all a pretty good day

but i get to do the whole Christmas thing again this weekend when my grandparents come to town! what a lucky duck am i!

p.s. I forgot the best part! my mom is getting a new laptop and is giving me hers!!! YAY ME!!

christmas eve eve

2007-12-23T18:12:00.000-06:00

So I'm just sitting here listening to some christmas music relaxing before the nuttiness begins.
Tomorrow my mom and I will be cleaning, baking cookies and waiting for my Uncle Dale to arrive. Christmas night I will be having dinner with Hugh's family and taking the presents to their house.
I cant wait for them to see their gifts! Hugh will be the most surprised I think because I told him he might have to wait until after Christmas.

In other news:
I have cut my hair to above my shoulders. I also treated myself to bangs. Wh-hoo! It's a tad bit shorter than I had hoped but it's still cute.

Hughie and I are excited because evn though we were dating last Christmas, this year we are actually going to spend time together which will be great. I miss him so much when I come home.
But that might not be a problem anymore because my dad has gone back to hating me and not wanting me at the house. bummer.

I am at last back to work at Pilot. They thought it would be good for me to work graveyard. [haha, not]
It kicked my butt. But it pays so who am I to complain.

Sadly, Justice had another seizure this morning. Poor baby, It had been awhile since the last one and today it was pretty bad. After the actual attack it was an hour or so before his back was straight again. It breaks my heart to sit on the ground and hold his head still while his body shakes and his eyes roll around. My sweet little doggie...

Anywho, there's homemade chili with steak and chicken in it calling my name form the kitchen so I better get to it.
Love to All, Amber Starr

[no day but today]

good bread good meat...

2007-11-22T16:40:00.000-06:00

Ah...
Thanksgiving is always satisfying here with the Irish Clan.
My uncle Dale was driving through so he's here for a few days. My dad's friend Steve had no one to spend Turkey Day with so we invited him into our home. Great food and a lovely table setting. [courtesy of yours truly] I had nice place mats, candles, matching flatware, napkins in ceramic rings and I even hand wrote name cards and drew leaves on them. Everyone thought it was cute.
Dad and the 3 other guys watched the Packers/ Lions game. [go Cheese]
Now we are all relaxing and watching The Longest Yard. [the Adam Sandler version]
Lucky for me, my Turkey Day festivities are not yet over. At 5pm I get to go have dinner with Hugh's ENTIRE FAMILY. They actually invited me. I feel so special, very exciting to be able to go celebrate a holiday with my future in-laws. But at the same time I am very nervous. What if I'm under dressed? Or worse, over dressed?
[deep breath; in through the nose & out through the mouth...]
I'm sure it will all be fine. And no, I do not mean Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional.
Ha ha..
Well the peanut butter pie is calling my name...
Pictures coming soon I promise!!!

workin for a livin...

2007-11-13T16:17:00.000-06:00

well wh-hoo!
last night was my first OfFiCiAl NiGhT as an employee at Pilot.
No mopping, cleaning showers or crackheads in the phone room this time.
Instead they put me on the register!!!
It was exciting but I was also very very nervous. Luckily I had Beth and Sydney there to show me the ropes. They're both very patient, and for that I'm grateful.
Because as we all know I am a blonde and not very quick.
Well I better get to bed. Gotta be there at 6pm.
"...and above all things LOVE" [~Moulin Rouge]

a worthy commercial

2007-11-08T18:34:00.000-06:00

So I know that you have all seen this commercial:

nausea.

heartburn.

indigestion.

upset stomach.

diarrhea.

yay Pepto Bismol!

It's annoying yes, but also clever, funny and catchy. But has anyone thought to use the same jingle to sell an even better product? Something that costs nothing? It may seem like we don't have to actually sell something that's free.. but you would be surprised.

so here's MY version: [you should say this OUTLOUD to the same tune]

trauma.

heartbreak.

indecision.

upset lifestyle.

and reunions.

yay God Almighty!

Proof that all my best thinking is done in my bathroom... LOL.

nerves galore

2007-11-08T13:47:00.000-06:00

So in case you haven't heard the news yet- I have my first job!

Yup, I am a new nightime cashier at Pilot. Tonight I go in for paperwork and an instructional video..[fun] And then I start actually working on Monday.
I'll be there from 6pm-11 tonight and next week it will be 6pm-midnight.
I am so excited but at the same time am very VERY nervous.
My stomach is in knots.

So to calm my nerves I am writing posts, taking surveys, eating some jerky and listening to Carlos Santana, Prince and Roy Orbison.

Hugh is very proud of me and even looking to get a job at Dairy Queen or Wendy's so we can see each other. My mom was so happy last night. She kept referring to me as "the Working Girl". I hope that she's not calling me a prostitute...
And Dad was classic, well, dad. Basically my paychecks go to him and he gives me some pocket money because apparently I have to pay rent, groceries and car insurance to him. Right. I think we're gonna need a little chat. I am not gonna be up every night dealing with truck drivers getting a mere $7.75 an hour just to fork it ALL over to him. It's not like he actually needs the extra income. This is supposed to be for ME, so I can pay for things that I want and save up to eventually move into my own apartment with Hughie. How will that happen if he's taking my pay and keeping me in the red?
He's just trying to restrict my funds so I can't buy things like cigarettes, music and shoes. I know thats it.
Okay... enough father bashing..

Breathe Amber, breathe.

"...you got the kinda loving hat can be so smooth. well gimme your heart, make it real or lets forget about it.."

There, that's better.
Well if I am gonna be on the clock at 6 and going to bed around 12- 1230 I should probablyeat something substantial and then take a lil power nap.

Love to all...

"...and above all things: LOVE"

Willkommen..Bienvenue..Welcome

2007-11-07T12:41:00.000-06:00

So here it is.. a glimpse into the life journey of not one but 3 families and how they all miraculously intertwine. Not seamlessly, mind you, but comfortably.

Hughie and I met in September 2006.We didn't exactly hit it off at first. I thought he was just a dork. A cute dork, but a dork all the same. But we became friends and saw each other often outside of school. Ditching the second half of the day, riding home together and at Teen Night at the Fernley Pool. Eventually I realized that my feelings for him were far deeper than friendship. I was dating a friend of his at the time, but broke it off when I saw how I truly felt. I couldn't lead the other guy on. So on October 4, 2006 at 7:35 am [ just as the first bell was ringing] we became a couple. A month later, the weekend before Thanksgiving actually, he proposed. I will never forget how sweet and nervous he was. His words exactly:

"I know that we're young but I love you with all me heart and soul. I can't see my future without picturing you in it. When we are older and ready, would you marry me?"

I said yes, of course. Who could deny such honesty and passion?

In February I suspected that I was pregnant. Being young; full of raging hormones and what not; we weren't very cautious. On Washington's Birthday I took a pregnancy test at a friend's house and there were two lines. Lucky me. I was 17 and was going to have a baby with my 16 year old boyfriend. We kept it a secret from both of our families for awhile. Mid-March I told my parents. They were definitely not pleased. My mother locked herself in the bathroom. My father, instead of yelling at me, opted for the even scarier calm-silence. Nothing says "I'm disappointed in you" like a steely cold stare from my dad.

Hughie's mother didn't even believe us at first! She took me to the Pregnancy Clinic to witness a test for herself before she would actually acknowledge it.

I was not living at home at this time. We bounced from friend's house to friend's house, occasionally staying with his family but i had to sleep on the couch.

Easter weekend we went camping on Lake Lahontan with our friends Hobo Tom, Skylar and Cowboy. Late at night in our makeshift tent, [Hughie hung blankets over a fallen tree for the two of us to sleep in], we discussed possibilities for our future and agreed that adoption was the best option for our unborn child. We knew it would not be easy to just let him go so an agreement was made that it would have to be an open adoption. Where we could get to know his parents, see him from time to time and basically be reassured constantly that he was okay and that we had made the right decision.

In July I contacted the Independent Adoption Center [IAC] and they sent me letters from prospective adoptive parents that were located in California. I was offered families in Nevada but I didn't think I could handle being so close to him. [By then I had found out that I was going to have a boy.] I scanned each letter hoping to find something, a sign, any word that said "these are the ones". Page after page described couples to me. Promises of caring homes, openness, people telling me I was brave for considering this, etc. All pretty much the same. And then I saw them.

Shane and Deanna's letter was attractive to the eye, full of warmth and love for not only each other but the son or daughter they wished to have. What really made my decision easier was their smiles in the picture on front. It was taken outside [by a family member I later learned, her brother-in-law] and their smiles were so bright and full of hope. I turned to my cousin LeAnne, sitting beside me on the bed, and said "I found his parents." On July 26th LeAnne made that first call. I was so nervous. But once the phone was handed to me and I heard Deanna's voice coming through; all excited and kind; I knew I had chosen the right ones.

So we talked, we met in person on a warm August night, decided we meshed well and wanted to begin a new part of the journey together.

This is the not-so-happy part of the story so I will condense it. Hugh is 1/4 Chuckchansi Indian. his tribe was notified of the adoption and disagreed with us on where our son should be. We decided to speak to them personally. Hugh and I flew to California on September 17th [MY 18TH BIRTHDAY!] to see the tribe on the following Monday. But God apparently had another plan altogether. On Thursday September 20th I went into early labor. How early? A whole month. After hours of great pain, stress, paperwork, and a frantic drive from Nevada for my parents it was time for the big, blessed event. Our little boy was born at 3:06 am on September 21, 2007. He was a tiny 5lbs. ans 11oz., and 20 in. long. He was perfect in our eyes. Deanna and Shane got a little boy like they dreamed of for so many years. He had to be in the NICU at Northridge Hospital for 2 weeks due to weak lungs but it brought the four of us that much closer.

The tribe is still trying to fight us on our decision to place him with the Moore's but we signed relinquishments and have returned to Fernley. The last 6 weeks with Shane and Dee have been tests of willpower, no doubt but we have pushed through and found a bit of courage and backbone in each of us undiscovered until now. Together we have become a strange, eccentric at times, little family all our own. Hugh and I will always be there for Aedyn [his birth name was James Mitchell, but his adoptive name will be Aedyn James] as support and love. We may have been the ones to bring him into this world but Shane and Deanna will be the ones getting him through it in one piece. They are his parents. And we could not be more blessed to have them in our lives.

Well that's our story up until now. Hughie and I will will update often with anecdotes of our new lives. Here's to laughter and friendship. And to learning that family is not flesh and blood, but being there for one another, showing support for all endeavors.

"...And above all things LOVE." [~Moulin Rouge]